Friday, May 16, 2014

*Sigh*

When everything is going just fine something has to go wrong. Is it like the universal law of life or something?
I don't know but it's bothering me alot.
This semester started off just fine, I actually made nice friends for a changing, started trusting people, made good memories,our laughter, lame jokes and god knows what not.
And I actually felt like going to university, I had that urge k 'nai aaj chutti nai karni'.
But I guess my happiness is bound to not last longer. I am not being cynical at all, but that's how it is.
All of a sudden from the past 3 weeks since I started working, my friends have been giving me cold shoulders, just when the semester is about to end. Weird isn't it? Why do I always come across back-stabbing and fake people. And why do they always come up to me when they need help.

I've always listened to everybody, I was always there when they had nobody to pour their heart too, but when I need somebody I hardly ever find anyone.
Loyalty is something I treasure truly. But I don't get it in return. 
Sometimes I really wish I had super-powers, so that I could read minds as to what do they actually think about me so that I wouldn't really have to keep up with their fakeness. Being among a bunch of people I call friends , these days I feel as if m standing with a bunch of strangers. I'd rather be alone.
Sometime I just feel like escaping, going somewhere far away. If only I could do whatever the hell I wanted to do, listen to my heart, follow my dreams.
Baking is something that I love doing, I can never say no to it. But these days I don't even do that.
Have been bottling up my feelings lately cuz there's nobody to listen to my crap anyways.

2 comments:

  1. Loyalty is an expensive gift.. don't expect it from cheap people.. just ignore the one who ignores you and please, continue with your baking :)

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    1. Yeah maybe you're right :)
      And yes I've been baking lately :p

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